[moved]
fill_myvoid

i might drop by here a few times
for old times sake

until then...
tata

you know that you're jealous...

tei'gg juqum kabimu pcan eip hiococococo!

what did i say?
you dont know!!

the only person that may know this, would be josh..

we speak that freaky language of freaky freaks

WORK YOUR WITCHCRAFT, TOM CRUISE!

!@#$%^&*()_-=+)(*&^%$#@!

time for and edit;;

[knock on wood] i am no longer sick !
HOORAY!

advice anyone?
1. lost a really good friend
2. gained a not so good one
3. tempted by old memories
4. losing touch with reality

in other news..
4 weeks ..
30 days ..
720 hours ..
43200 minutes ..
86400 seconds ..
[until school]

it amazes me how selfish one can be.
you said all you wanted was to make me happy&
all you wanted was to be with me..
bullshit
you threw everything i ever told you back in my face
then
appologized..
congrats...i hate you.

for you spitler,
yuxeyu pcan wapxc! geg..

SO..
there was this window in this church..
and outside of this window there was this tree..beautiful tree
[recap] big big church...beautiful tree
wedding day..
beautiful gown, beautiful vail
beautiful husband
...one day.

"There are moments in life when you have to stand up and take responsibility....I like to look at those moments, and wave as they pass me by"

or something like that..

<-- still sick
<-- gained internet access back
<-- got slapped by old memories
<-- questioned myself
<-- swallowed my pride
<-- lied
<-- plaid fake
<-- avoided his calls
<-- has a swolled tastebud
<-- got sunburnt

um..yea, still no life.

despite the fact that i'm cursed with this overly-exaggerated, melo-dramatic, stupid, annoying, black cloud thats been hanging over my head for about three weeks now, i'm sick.
yessss, sick.

only I, Abby Huffstetler, the me, one and only could manage to get a COLD in JULY...

..is it wrong to feel lonely?
i'm not a depressed person. im not a sad person. most of the time, i am actually pretty happy..or, content, really.
but lately, im lonely. yes, i smile, and yes i laugh...but there is a hole somewhere. i dont know how to fill it. i'll call it my "need to be needed" hole. this hole generates most of my problems. from this hole, spawns my indecisiveness, and insecurities. fucking hole!! the past few days, i've tried to fill it with several things. things...you're not working. sorry, but you're not.

this feeling = what i hate

prince charming...hurry.
please?